In AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) you often here the expression, “the gift of desperation” as a means for an alcoholic to accept the 1st Step of the AA program. I’m not sure I feel desperate, but I do feel hopeless as I have found myself using beer again to hide my emotional state and twelve days ago, I decided to return to AA and call the man that was sponsoring me in “the program”. Today, he asked me to write about “powerlessness and unmanageability” in my life.
I have decided to share it here:
I am currently on my 13th day of complete sobriety from alcohol and working through the first step of Alcoholics Anonymous.