Powerlessness & Unmanageability

In AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) you often here the expression, “the gift of desperation” as a means for an alcoholic to accept the 1st Step of the AA program. I’m not sure I feel desperate, but I do feel hopeless as I have found myself using beer again to hide my emotional state and twelve days ago, I decided to return to AA and call the man that was sponsoring me in “the program”. Today, he asked me to write about “powerlessness and unmanageability” in my life.

I have decided to share it here:

 

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I am currently on my 13th day of complete sobriety from alcohol and working through the first step of Alcoholics Anonymous.

21 thoughts on “Powerlessness & Unmanageability

    1. Well, my track-record hasn’t been successful otherwise. I know when I am involved in AA, I’m able to give up drinking; when I take any time away from AA, I seem to go right back to it. I tend to play little mental games with myself, assuming I can stop whenever I feel like it. I suppose, I would be characterized as a “high-functioning” alcoholic. Although, I have not been drunk in almost 10 years, I have grown to depend on alcohol’s effects on numbing my feelings and emotions. For me, the trial will begin when I begin approaching the concept of “God”…

      But, thank you, so much, for your comment…

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  1. One day at a time. Don’t worry about tomorrow, or next week, or Christmas parties. Just stay sober for today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.

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      1. My sponsor says to others when there’s a relapse, “ok, so that happened and it’s in the past. What are you gonna do now?”

        For me, I’m an alcoholic, and while I def have a drinking problem it turned out I had just as big a problem figuring out how to deal with all life’s problems sober. I learned that if I stayed sober, it WOULD get better – maybe not how I planned on or hoped, but it would indeed get better.

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      2. Keep going to meetings if you can, and don5 give up 5 minutes before the miracle occurs. 💪🏼💪🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

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