Wish me luck…

So, as many of you know, I just began a new job a little over a month ago.  The unfortunate result is that I have less time to spend on here blogging.  I’m still unsure, if I made the right decision and I am still struggling with the challenges of taking on this new position.  However, there is some potential with this job and I am looking forward to the opportunity to work into it.  I had mentioned in previous posts (or comments…I’m not really sure, and I’m too lazy to go hunt them down. It could very well be my imagination too) that I am still struggling with some mental health issues and depression being one of them.

With that mention of depression, I said I was going to consider getting medication when I get my medical insurance.  Well, that insurance went into effect on August 1st and I scheduled an appointment with a doctor today.  It’s a new doctor and I have been debating asking to be screened for depression or anxiety – maybe even both – but I have some doubts. I go back and forth in my mind whether or not I am capable of overcoming all of this on my own. But a month ago, I had feelings and emotions that had scared me, and I made the decision it was time to truly address some things.

But I’m nervous.

I hate labels – i.e. “alcoholic”, any negative connotation of my sexuality, etc. – so, I’m worried that somehow having a mental illness will prevent me from any sort of future possibilities of doing something good with my life. Even as old as I am, I feel like I haven’t truly made my path in life…

I feel so much actually, that I am about to go off topic and spend a great deal of time trying to answer every challenge in my life right here and now. And that feels overwhelming.

So, I am going to go to the doctor and I’m going to discuss my mental health, as well as my physical health. And I might even admit my sexuality on the intake form when asked, but I will certainly ask for my mental health to be evaluated.

20 thoughts on “Wish me luck…

  1. Glad you’re getting help and taking control.
    Playing devil’s advocate – instead of writing it on the forms, what if you wait to meet the doctor and if you feel they’re listening and the right person to help you, then you talk about what your issues are. I’m not a fan of labels either and feel like on paper it’s easier to label someone but face to face, the doctor has the complete picture of you as a person.

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  2. Your doc should screen you for depression and anxiety at the same time. Reason being, many anxiety disorders become so frustrating and debilitating to the patient that depression begins moving in and it becomes a vicious cycle. There are quite a few drugs out there that handle both. The very best to you on the new job and getting your health in order.

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  3. Best of luck with the new job! And I’m very happy you’re seeking some medical help. I sure hope it all goes well and you can get some peace of mind! Sending positive thoughts your way!

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  4. I wish I had read this first! One in four people have had a mental health issue, so join the very large club. Recently, I had to tell my employer that I wanted to take some time off and shared my anxiety issues. He revealed that he also took anti-anxiety meds! Who knew? Your medical record is entirely private and you have no reason to share that information unless you want to. I am now going to write a rider to the my other comment… K x

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