I’m just lost…professionally.

I’ve never minded hard work. In fact, I have always accepted the fact that to get anywhere in life, you have to be willing to put forth the effort. What I’m struggling with today is that I have always put forth a lot of effort in the pursuit of my goals, but as I get older I don’t have the physical energy I once had. So, busting my ass, working two jobs and committing 70 hours or more each week is beginning to feel overwhelming. I’m tired and discouraged.

I’m now working two jobs I can’t stand and I can’t seem to get any footing back in the industry I used to work. Every single person I have as contacts from my previous role has ignored me – or simply haven’t taken any time to respond to my phone calls or emails.  I’ve been applying for so many jobs in that previous industry with no luck.  It feels dried up. I feel like I’ll never be working in oil & gas again and I don’t understand why.

I’m willing to reinvent myself and try to find different career fields. I am already enrolled in a program to finish my Master’s degree in Data Analytics, but working two jobs right now makes me think I am over-committed to things. I know I need to put forth effort to make the changes to adapt to my situation, but everything feels like a double-edged sword and I am feeling overwhelmed.

I’m truly at a point where I feel lost. I feel embattled and losing. I feel exhausted. I feel at age 47, I’m trying things I should have done 20 years ago.

I just don’t know what to do anymore…

10 thoughts on “I’m just lost…professionally.

  1. You are “shoulding” all over yourself, as a counselor once told me. What is the next right thing to do, that will advance you to where you would like to be? It mat require some thought. you also won’t get anywhere if you stop just to beat yourself up.

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  2. It seems that when you get into your late 40s, early 50s, getting a really good paying job is damned near impossible. You’re overqualified – which really means you’re gonna be a very expensive hire and for someone who, in theory, isn’t going to be working much longer for an employer to break even on their investment in your skills and experience.

    Plus, they can hire some 20-something right out of college and for way less money. Now you find yourself working jobs you can’t stand to keep your head above water and it’s always been true that if you have a job you don’t like, you’re not going to be motivated to get up and go in there every day; you start underperforming, not putting your very best into your work and, well, it just sucks in every bad way possible.

    Getting a master’s degree at this point is great… might not help you rise back to the top – see the first paragraph I wrote – but, sure, if you can do it and there’s a chance the new sheepskin will help, ya gotta go for it…

    But you also have to keep at the crappy jobs you already have; not the ideal career path but they’re paying the bills… and you do need to keep doing that, don’t you? This is the point where you suck it up (mind out of the gutter, please) and do what has to be done even if you don’t like doing it; you cannot and should not just roll over and give up.

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  3. OMG!!! I can totally relate! What is the problem with the oil and gas industry? The access to drugs? I only ask because that field is heavy where I am from and the guys I know seem to have such access. Not to mention the long hours and great pay but I feel ya because of the same exact scenario with being a bartender – easy money, too much access, and bust your ass work but I am aging and it seems so rapidly. I haven’t technically worked in a month and one day, today. I was hired at a local bar today but that isn’t the point. I am finding it extremely difficult to enter back into the workforce. I have done odds and ends jobs which has paid my bills but not enough to feed me and continue paying said bills. I am trying to transition to working from home but I find without experience or a degree, I am not hirable for what I have interest in. Oddly, I have remained scary calm about all of it but I know time is up. Real-world calls and still sucks, might I add. Let me know if you discover a solution. Lol

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