I’ve never minded hard work. In fact, I have always accepted the fact that to get anywhere in life, you have to be willing to put forth the effort. What I’m struggling with today is that I have always put forth a lot of effort in the pursuit of my goals, but as I get older I don’t have the physical energy I once had. So, busting my ass, working two jobs and committing 70 hours or more each week is beginning to feel overwhelming. I’m tired and discouraged.
I’m now working two jobs I can’t stand and I can’t seem to get any footing back in the industry I used to work. Every single person I have as contacts from my previous role has ignored me – or simply haven’t taken any time to respond to my phone calls or emails. I’ve been applying for so many jobs in that previous industry with no luck. It feels dried up. I feel like I’ll never be working in oil & gas again and I don’t understand why.
I’m willing to reinvent myself and try to find different career fields. I am already enrolled in a program to finish my Master’s degree in Data Analytics, but working two jobs right now makes me think I am over-committed to things. I know I need to put forth effort to make the changes to adapt to my situation, but everything feels like a double-edged sword and I am feeling overwhelmed.
I’m truly at a point where I feel lost. I feel embattled and losing. I feel exhausted. I feel at age 47, I’m trying things I should have done 20 years ago.
I just don’t know what to do anymore…