This entry into my Beautiful Me Journal is a few days late. Honestly, I struggled with this entry, simply because of the title. But, reading the suggested practice made me even more aware at how much it bothers me. The reality is this: I have a lot of interests and I feel like I have so many barriers and obstacles preventing me from engaging my interests. A lot of it has to do with money, but a lot has to do with my marriage too (One of these days, I’ll begin addressing my marriage a little more openly). But, I’ve decided to open up about the things I enjoy, because I really want to change my perspective and find a way to love myself again.
So, in no particular order and without further adieu, here are my interests:
- Time with my family
- Martial arts – particularly Taekwon-Do.
- Mountains – hiking, camping, just being there.
Granted, there are other things that pull at my mind, but I certainly know that the things above, really do it for me. And there are things that I didn’t list either, but I’m not really sure I want to either. I know that I have pulled away from these things – almost 100% – over the past years. Granted, I am trying to return to these activities, but it always seems like there is some roadblock of some kind. I think, I can truly see how not doing these things can impact my self-esteem. And, that really does need to be where I spend my time.