It’s been a while since I last wrote in my Beautiful My Journal (BMJ). You might notice that today’s entry is marked “Day 112” and it’s been quite a few days since I posted “Day 111”; well, that’s because I follow this guide on an irregular basis. It’s just how I function at times and it’s kind of ironic that today’s topic is about priorities – something in which I certainly struggle. In this entry, the author is asking us to identify our priorities. Where I struggle is not in the actual identification if priorities, but more about how to allocate my time in the things I find a priority. She suggests listing activities, people, or other areas we spend our energy. But, she also suggests an element of desire – what do we WANT to spend energy and time on?
Here are the things I want to spend my time an energy on, in no certain order:
- Spirituality and sobriety
- My health and fitness
- My financial well being
- Family & Friends
Of course, I have sub-categories to each of these and I find myself competing with myself on where to spend my time on a lot of these things. I know, unequivocally, that I have wasted a good majority of my time on drinking, co-dependence and self-loathing (see Hilda) and I’m working on changing a lot of those feelings to something more positive and loving towards my self (see Stephanie). I still have a ways to go, but I am truly working on a better, more beautiful version of myself.