Friday afternoon, I had a job interview. It was for a chemical engineering position with a very small pharmaceutical company. Yes, I live in Colorado, but it’s not a cannabis based pharmaceutical company. The company is relatively new – since 2005, but it focused on producing over the counter anti-viral medication. I applied for the … Continue reading A new industry, imperfection, fear…
“Worrying paralyzes us…” as the author of Beautiful You puts it in this entry requested for my Beautiful Me Journal (BMJ). And it’s true, worrying really does have an element of stopping you in your tacks of living your life. As much as I hate admitting it, I have the awesome ability of seeing the … Continue reading BMJ: Day 142 – Face My Fears
Having struggled with alcoholism over the past five years (Okay, it’s probably more like 15, but I began attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings five years ago), I have had chances to see various stages of the 12-step program. Although I have not gotten past the 4th step, I have had and listened to discussions about character … Continue reading Fear: A Character Defect
I don’t think it’s any big secret that depression is a part of my life; I don’t deny it anymore. At one time, however, I completely hid from it and used alcohol to try and hide my feelings. The thing is, I’ve come to expect it at certain times and today is one of those … Continue reading Fear of Feeling Good.
The second I said those words (the title of this post), I knew I regretted it. The full sentence I said was, “Our marriage is the icing on the shit cake of my life.” It was mean, hateful, cruel and not the truth. The reality is that I was hurting from so much at the … Continue reading “The Icing on the Shit Cake of My Life…”