It’s been a while since I’ve been regular on my blog. I wish I had some sort of big project, major life changes or whatever, but I do not. The reality is that I am stuck in the never breakable cycle of my own making. I try, repeat the struggles, impose my own negativity (a … Continue reading What’s Going On?
Having struggled with alcoholism over the past five years (Okay, it’s probably more like 15, but I began attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings five years ago), I have had chances to see various stages of the 12-step program. Although I have not gotten past the 4th step, I have had and listened to discussions about character … Continue reading Fear: A Character Defect
Before I really talk about this, I’m going to qualify this by saying I am in early sobriety, so there have not been “real” tests on my sobriety – especially since I chronically relapse on a mere whim – like being in desperate need of a pedicure. I’m only partially joking…you outta see the claws … Continue reading Strains on Sobriety
I admit it. Sometimes I’m embarrassed and ashamed that I have to admit I’m week and fickle when it comes to drinking (That’s a fucking understatement shrouded in delusion – I’m a fucking alcoholic). At times, it feels like a huge character flaw to admit this is something I have to struggle with overcoming. It … Continue reading Just Do What I Got To Do.
…my part time job. I went against my own principles and quit a job without notice. As many of you know, I have been working a part-time job since last September as a means of closing the gab between my expenses and my income. It was simple math, right? Well, here is where the complexity … Continue reading So, I quit…