Approaching a Year of Sobriety.

359 Days. At approximately 9:00 p.m. on October 30th, 2021, I had my last drink. In fact, it was the 2nd of two beers that particular night. I went to a dinner playhouse and had two Sam Adams Boston Lager’s that night. I remember thinking, as I finished that last beer, “Why the fuck am … Continue reading Approaching a Year of Sobriety. →

Embarrassing Memory: Dropping trouser or God at work?

Before I begin this topic, I am going to preface it with the fact that I started it, deleted it, started it and deleted it again. And then I decided to say, “Fuck it, I’m writing it, because it’s part of my story!” So, here goes… My wife (yes, we are on a hiatus from … Continue reading Embarrassing Memory: Dropping trouser or God at work? →

Gift of Desperation

As an alcoholic, I have always struggled with this phrase “Gift of Desperation” (FYI: the acronym spells out God), because I don’t know what desperation should feel like. But often times, attending Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) meetings, you hear this phrase mentioned a lot when an alcoholic is struggling finding their individual bottom. I’m not sure … Continue reading Gift of Desperation →

I made it through.

Yesterday was Day 1, again, after I was going to have a day one two days ago and didn’t make it. Truthfully, I know my ego prevents me from admitting a weakness. I hate the “alcoholic” label and I still mess around with the idea that I’m not, because I don’t get drunk. I have … Continue reading I made it through. →

I don’t really want to drink anymore.

A couple of weeks ago, I made the decision that I wasn’t an alcoholic. So, I began drinking beer again. I just wanted to be “normal” on some level. I felt like I wasn’t really getting the Alcoholics Anonymous’ (AA) 12-Step Program, because everything I was being told I needed top address about myself – … Continue reading I don’t really want to drink anymore. →