Before I begin this topic, I am going to preface it with the fact that I started it, deleted it, started it and deleted it again. And then I decided to say, “Fuck it, I’m writing it, because it’s part of my story!” So, here goes… My wife (yes, we are on a hiatus from … Continue reading Embarrassing Memory: Dropping trouser or God at work?
As an alcoholic, I have always struggled with this phrase “Gift of Desperation” (FYI: the acronym spells out God), because I don’t know what desperation should feel like. But often times, attending Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) meetings, you hear this phrase mentioned a lot when an alcoholic is struggling finding their individual bottom. I’m not sure … Continue reading Gift of Desperation
Yesterday was Day 1, again, after I was going to have a day one two days ago and didn’t make it. Truthfully, I know my ego prevents me from admitting a weakness. I hate the “alcoholic” label and I still mess around with the idea that I’m not, because I don’t get drunk. I have … Continue reading I made it through.
A couple of weeks ago, I made the decision that I wasn’t an alcoholic. So, I began drinking beer again. I just wanted to be “normal” on some level. I felt like I wasn’t really getting the Alcoholics Anonymous’ (AA) 12-Step Program, because everything I was being told I needed top address about myself – … Continue reading I don’t really want to drink anymore.
My morning began a little rough. I’m not sure what it is about stumbling that makes me feel like an idiot, but this morning I was feeling rather negative and doubting in any kind of hope. But I tend to be the kind of person that accepts empirical evidence as proof for something – maybe … Continue reading Pray: Surrender as the Means to Recover.