I made it 99 days (this past Saturday), before I decided to drink a beer. I went to dinner with my wife, she ordered a glass of wine and I ordered a beer. I drank one beer with dinner. I felt guilty, but I felt guilty because I felt like I would be letting AA … Continue reading I had a beer…
Yesterday, I was having a conversation with a friend on Twitter about being bisexual and being married. The conversation began, because I ran into someone yesterday - a guy - that I found absolutely mesmerizing and I had a definitive physiological reaction to him (if you catch my drift). I had made a comment about … Continue reading Exploration
I woke up this morning, feeling a little defeated. I woke up this morning not wanting my life. I woke up this morning feeling sick and tired of being sick and tired. I woke up this morning feeling like sobriety didn't matter. And then, I rolled out of bed and prayed The Serenity Prayer, asked … Continue reading I Don’t Want to Struggle.
WARNING: I’m going to be discussing something of an adult nature. I am whipping this out as it comes to mind and I have thoughts that are raw and uncensored – I may or may not use vulgarity. Oh, and it may have tons of grammatical and spelling errors too (Oh, the horror!?!?!). This post is … Continue reading S.A.R.D. #13: Stephanie
Most people have an image of alcoholics as weak, weak-minded and weak-willed. There is this idea that alcoholics (or any addicts) simply cannot exercise will power, because they find themselves in the throes of addiction and addictive behavior. And when it comes to drinking, there is an inability to refute that temptation for an alcoholic. … Continue reading Relinquishing My Will