I’m off today.

I don't know what it is about my emotions that cause me to swing back and forth from positive (Stephanie) to negative (Hilda) in a matter of a few days, hours, minutes or seconds. But, since yesterday, I've just been on this blah trek in my psyche. I'm not really sure what it is that's …

I don’t know how…

I don't know how to put my faith in God or a Higher Power. I'm starting to despise phrases such as these: "Give it up to God!" "Did you talk to your Higher Power?" "Have you prayed about it? "Go to the Church and light a candle." "Have faith" "Trust God" "God has a plan" …

I Give Up.

I'm done.

Escapism

I always feel a need to escape. Now, more than ever, I feel a need to escape from my life. I can't seem to find the light that leads me into something better than the way I feel. I drank again. It was 2 beers on Saturday night and 1 beer on Sunday night. They …

Avoiding Stress in Recovery: Let Stephanie Out

I'm new in sobriety. Although it might seem like it's the most stressful time to try and quit drinking (i.e. coronavirus), is there a more perfect time to give something up that's bad for you then the here and now? I think this moment is the only one that matters - something that isn't easy …