I'm not sure why it scares me so much, but I made an appointment to see a therapist. I'm scheduled for this Friday. I know I've been combating a lot of demons - alcohol abuse, depression, self-image and self-esteem, relationship conflicts, hopelessness, anxiety, sexuality, financial stress, etc. It's a smorgasbord of mental bullshit, but it's … Continue reading Therapy
Living in the past fucking sucks. And yet, I do it. Regularly. Today on my morning commute to work, my thoughts were on how much I don't like where I'm working and it got me to thinking about the job and career I had before. The job I was laid off from back in 2015. … Continue reading Living in the Past F@^king Sucks: God’s Punishment
I've ruminated about some of my issues for quite some time. But, lately, I've had a full-scale attack from Hilda and it was not looking good for my mental outlook on life. But I know that the only way to combat the negativity is a plan of attack. In the past, I've written about some … Continue reading The Three Goals.
Some days I feel more down than others. Today is one of those days. And it's weird. Usually when I am feeling depressive, I can work my mind through it and come up with a way of finding myself trying to fight it back. But somedays, it all just feels hopeless. Today is one of … Continue reading Today is One of Those Days.
Last night, Hilda came in like a storm and was on full scale attack. She was seeking, retribution, I'm sure for the effort I put in over the past few months to change myself for the better. Last night, she was seeking out a strong stand to take over my mind and being fully. Ultimately, … Continue reading Hilda’s Full Scale Attack.