The Missing Link

There is always some link that is missing in a story of evolution, isn't there? Except, I'm not really speaking about Darwin's Theory of Evolution. No, I'm referring to my own personal evolution and I feel like something is missing. I can't even answer the question about what I think it might be. In fact, …

Self-Destructive Frustration

I am self-destructive when frustrated. I get frustrated when I am trying for an outcome that doesn't occur. The outcome doesn't occur, although, I'm trying to effect that outcome through control. I want to control what I can't seem to accept. I can't accept what I don't want as my reality. When my reality is …

Providing updates…

Honestly, I hate providing updates, but it feels like that's the only way I have any interaction on my blog anymore. I remember about 9 years ago, when I first began blogging about myself, I was on almost daily - sometimes three or four posts per day. Obviously, I squashed a couple of blogs before …

A Dark Mindset

"You are in such a dark mindset" were the words my friend on Twitter said to me. She's right. I am in a dark mindset. It's sort of been my thing the past five years. I kind of feel like I no longer know how to be positive. How can I possibly find happiness as …

I know I’ve said it before…

...but early sobriety just sucks. I've been on again and off again for the past several months. I struggle with so many of my thoughts that I find the only escape to be drinking a few beers on a daily basis. I don't even know how to wrestle with the idea that I know abstaining …