I always feel a need to escape. Now, more than ever, I feel a need to escape from my life. I can't seem to find the light that leads me into something better than the way I feel. I drank again. It was 2 beers on Saturday night and 1 beer on Sunday night. They … Continue reading Escapism
I'm new in sobriety. Although it might seem like it's the most stressful time to try and quit drinking (i.e. coronavirus), is there a more perfect time to give something up that's bad for you then the here and now? I think this moment is the only one that matters - something that isn't easy … Continue reading Avoiding Stress in Recovery: Let Stephanie Out
At one time, back when I was a kid, I went to a dentist that had a "treasure" chest in the office for kids. Kids were allowed to stick their hand in and pull out a surprise gift. I'm sure the idea was to minimize the fear and apprehension that some kids experience when visiting … Continue reading The Not-So-Treasured Chest
I can't do it. I can't get over my emotions. I can't get past how I feel about the utter shit-show my life has become. I can;t tell if I'm an alcoholic. I can't tell if I should be married, let alone if I'm bisexual or not. I can't tell if I am ever going … Continue reading Giving up
I've attached shame to so many things, but if I were to put together a list, it would look like this: My relationships Being bisexual My faith My alcoholism My role as a parent My role as a partner My job situation My financial situation My health My weight And many others. I began blogging … Continue reading I’m Done Allowing Shame to F&^K Me!