This morning, I woke up not feeling like being sober. It's not like I had the sudden urge to go drink, but I had these detrimental thoughts that went something along the lines of "Eh..what's the point?", "All of these seems like tedious and boring work" and even "Why do I want to share anything … Continue reading Self-Doubt – a.k.a. Hilda
I've got a lot of thoughts buzzing around my delicate little mind lately, but there are a couple that are more prominent than others and one of those is the thought that I really need to quit drinking. It's not like it's a big secret that I'm an alcoholic, but I seem to treat dealing … Continue reading I’ll keep trying.
Having struggled with alcoholism over the past five years (Okay, it's probably more like 15, but I began attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings five years ago), I have had chances to see various stages of the 12-step program. Although I have not gotten past the 4th step, I have had and listened to discussions about character … Continue reading Fear: A Character Defect
I'm not even sure where to begin this post, but I feel the need to get it out there and post something that forces me to take a hard stand against myself - rather, against Hilda. But I went off the rails again in a major way. In the past few weeks, I began drinking … Continue reading Get it together…
again, and again, and again, if I have to. Day 1 Sober