Fear: A Character Defect

Having struggled with alcoholism over the past five years (Okay, it's probably more like 15, but I began attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings five years ago), I have had chances to see various stages of the 12-step program. Although I have not gotten past the 4th step, I have had and listened to discussions about character …

Get it together…

I'm not even sure where to begin this post, but I feel the need to get it out there and post something that forces me to take a hard stand against myself - rather, against Hilda. But I went off the rails again in a major way. In the past few weeks, I began drinking …

I’ll try…

again, and again, and again, if I have to. Day 1 Sober

Not feeling it today…

One would think after 30 days of sobriety, that my spirit would be lifted and I would be utterly energized to continue down the path of sobriety. But today - really, the past few days - I feel a little meh...  Un-enthusiastic. I realize this is part of my alcoholic mind. I realize it is …

Dangerous Time

The title might seem appropriate to the times we're living in due to the Covid-19 pandemic, but it's actually about the fact that I am at a month sober. In fact, tomorrow marks 30 days since I last drank. And it's dangerous for me because I have been here before. I was mentioning to someone …