For the past several days, I've had some thoughts obsessing my mind when it's not focused. Honestly, it's something that I go through on a regular basis when I make attempts at sobriety. And I used to handle and accept my actions in the past as blips on my historical timeline. But, as I have … Continue reading Obsessive Thoughts Running in the Background
Before I begin this topic, I am going to preface it with the fact that I started it, deleted it, started it and deleted it again. And then I decided to say, "Fuck it, I'm writing it, because it's part of my story!" So, here goes... My wife (yes, we are on a hiatus from … Continue reading Embarrassing Memory: Dropping trouser or God at work?
I am not sure how to describe what I'm feeling today. The last few days has me feeling disengaged from my recovery program. I'm having a difficult time relating to people in Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) Zoom meetings. I'm having a tough time with getting any insight from my sponsor. I'm finding my mind drifting at … Continue reading Running Into Non-Existent Brick Walls
Before I really talk about this, I'm going to qualify this by saying I am in early sobriety, so there have not been "real" tests on my sobriety - especially since I chronically relapse on a mere whim - like being in desperate need of a pedicure. I'm only partially joking...you outta see the claws … Continue reading Strains on Sobriety
I've always kind have been a a go home or go big kind of person. I don't enjoy the mundane and I prefer to take on tasks or goals that challenge me. I've never been afraid to push myself to my limits for the purpose of pushing the boundaries of those limits for the purpose … Continue reading Mountainous Challenges as I Get Into Sobriety