I’m hot and I’m cold…

I'm not sure why my mood changes so often, but it does. It's kind of tedious, honestly, but I can wake up in the best of moods and then have it change to complete fear based negativity in a heartbeat. Take for example, this morning. I was full of optimism this morning. I was full …

I’m pretty sure I lie to myself

Yeah, I think I do. I think I lie to myself. I think I tell myself things and have no idea if I am building myself up with truths or lies and I have no idea if I am tearing myself down with truths or lies. I've got a few beers in me right now …

Swallowing Pride

I've been invited to an interview today. It's a full time cashier position with a hardware chain. I won't lie, it feels humiliating. I have 15 years of experience in an engineering role in the oil & gas industry. I have a B.S. in Chemical Engineering & Petroleum Refining. I am part of the way …

Get it together…

I'm not even sure where to begin this post, but I feel the need to get it out there and post something that forces me to take a hard stand against myself - rather, against Hilda. But I went off the rails again in a major way. In the past few weeks, I began drinking …

On the hunt again

Well, it appears I am on the job hunt again. This is the third time in five years that I have been let go from a job and I'm not sure if this firing is a good thing or a bad thing. Granted, I can recognize that I didn't pour myself into the job with …