I made it 99 days (this past Saturday), before I decided to drink a beer. I went to dinner with my wife, she ordered a glass of wine and I ordered a beer. I drank one beer with dinner. I felt guilty, but I felt guilty because I felt like I would be letting AA … Continue reading I had a beer…
Today, I hit 90 days of continued sobriety. It literally marks the longest I have gone without having a beer for the past 10 years. Granted, I haven't been drunk in a long time, but I was rather attached to my daily beer (or 6) for a long time. It had become a crutch in … Continue reading 90 Days
It's no secret that I struggle in my relationship with God. I struggle for so many reasons, but I won't go into great detail (You'll get bored, and I don't have the time), but I wanted to highlight a few things going on in my mind lately. My main struggle is that I have this … Continue reading God, Who Are You?
Most people have an image of alcoholics as weak, weak-minded and weak-willed. There is this idea that alcoholics (or any addicts) simply cannot exercise will power, because they find themselves in the throes of addiction and addictive behavior. And when it comes to drinking, there is an inability to refute that temptation for an alcoholic. … Continue reading Relinquishing My Will
I'll be hitting 30 days sober in just a couple of days, and it reminded me of another time I hit the one-month mark. It was almost a year ago that I hit the 30 day mark. The reality of my situation is that I am a chronic "relapser". Since I first walked into an … Continue reading Just some thoughts, as I approach 30 days Sober