Having struggled with alcoholism over the past five years (Okay, it's probably more like 15, but I began attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings five years ago), I have had chances to see various stages of the 12-step program. Although I have not gotten past the 4th step, I have had and listened to discussions about character … Continue reading Fear: A Character Defect
Before I really talk about this, I'm going to qualify this by saying I am in early sobriety, so there have not been "real" tests on my sobriety - especially since I chronically relapse on a mere whim - like being in desperate need of a pedicure. I'm only partially joking...you outta see the claws … Continue reading Strains on Sobriety
I've always kind have been a a go home or go big kind of person. I don't enjoy the mundane and I prefer to take on tasks or goals that challenge me. I've never been afraid to push myself to my limits for the purpose of pushing the boundaries of those limits for the purpose … Continue reading Mountainous Challenges as I Get Into Sobriety
Yesterday, I indicated that I wasn't managing my sobriety so well. That's probably an understatement, and today - this morning, especially - I felt my thoughts begin to unravel my emotions. It was a common tactic of Hilda, I'm sure. But I don't want to feel this way, so I am writing this all down, … Continue reading Perfectionism: Or How My Thoughts Spin Out of Control.
I have to be honest. I'm not managing my sobriety so well. I haven't been going to AA (alcoholics anonymous) meetings - I'm easily using the Covid-19 pandemic as an excuse (not to mention I live in a state with a mandated stay at home order) - I am sporadically calling my sponsor, and I've … Continue reading Managing Sobriety…? Yeah, right!