There are Things I Cannot Control…

This past week was difficult, to say the least. Lately, I have been struggling more and more with my sexuality and identity, but I'll get to that in a moment - especially, because those seem to be aspects of who I am that I can't really ever change, but I need to learn to accept …

Approaching a Year of Sobriety.

359 Days. At approximately 9:00 p.m. on October 30th, 2021, I had my last drink. In fact, it was the 2nd of two beers that particular night. I went to a dinner playhouse and had two Sam Adams Boston Lager's that night. I remember thinking, as I finished that last beer, "Why the fuck am …

Writing this…because…

Honestly, it's been quite some time since I've written anything. I suppose, my lack of creativity is coming from the fact that I am doing so much better than I was even a few months ago. There is the adage that artists draw on their own pain and maybe there is some element of that …

What is right – God or not?

To say I have a conflict with God is an understatement. I truly have a love-hate relationship with Him. I often mention that I was raised Catholic and currently reject it based upon my sexuality, but I know I really can't ignore my love and need for God either. Currently, I feel like an internal …

Working Through Step 4…

As many of you know, I am an alcoholic and I use the Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) as the pathway to my recovery. And I am currently on the 4th step of this program: "Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves." This step involves the listing of resentments, figuring out the causes, understanding how …