I'm not sure where it came from. I'm not sure what inspired it. I'm not even sure they are my thoughts. But I had some revelations - and probably some that have been obvious to others for quite some time. But I woke up this morning thinking these things to myself (I'm pretty sure it's … Continue reading Some basic self-truths.
This morning, I woke up not feeling like being sober. It's not like I had the sudden urge to go drink, but I had these detrimental thoughts that went something along the lines of "Eh..what's the point?", "All of these seems like tedious and boring work" and even "Why do I want to share anything … Continue reading Self-Doubt – a.k.a. Hilda
I've got a lot of thoughts buzzing around my delicate little mind lately, but there are a couple that are more prominent than others and one of those is the thought that I really need to quit drinking. It's not like it's a big secret that I'm an alcoholic, but I seem to treat dealing … Continue reading I’ll keep trying.
The title might seem appropriate to the times we're living in due to the Covid-19 pandemic, but it's actually about the fact that I am at a month sober. In fact, tomorrow marks 30 days since I last drank. And it's dangerous for me because I have been here before. I was mentioning to someone … Continue reading Dangerous Time
For the past several days, I've had some thoughts obsessing my mind when it's not focused. Honestly, it's something that I go through on a regular basis when I make attempts at sobriety. And I used to handle and accept my actions in the past as blips on my historical timeline. But, as I have … Continue reading Obsessive Thoughts Running in the Background