Writing this…because…

Honestly, it's been quite some time since I've written anything. I suppose, my lack of creativity is coming from the fact that I am doing so much better than I was even a few months ago. There is the adage that artists draw on their own pain and maybe there is some element of that …

What is right – God or not?

To say I have a conflict with God is an understatement. I truly have a love-hate relationship with Him. I often mention that I was raised Catholic and currently reject it based upon my sexuality, but I know I really can't ignore my love and need for God either. Currently, I feel like an internal …

Working Through Step 4…

As many of you know, I am an alcoholic and I use the Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) as the pathway to my recovery. And I am currently on the 4th step of this program: "Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves." This step involves the listing of resentments, figuring out the causes, understanding how …

S.A.R.D. #31-1/2: Spiritual Fitness

The past week has been somewhat stressful, based upon the events of last week. I have stayed in touch with my sponsor, however, since I am technically new in sobriety. Of course, my sponsor is concerned about my sobriety, right now, and it makes perfect sense - so am I! I guess, in some small …

Self-Destructive Frustration

I am self-destructive when frustrated. I get frustrated when I am trying for an outcome that doesn't occur. The outcome doesn't occur, although, I'm trying to effect that outcome through control. I want to control what I can't seem to accept. I can't accept what I don't want as my reality. When my reality is …