Not-So-Random Thoughts On My Sobriety & Life: God, Relationship, Career, Health, Sexuality , Etc.

So, as of Halloween - roughly a week ago, I crossed a full year of continuous sobriety. And I am thrilled by that, especially because I had expressed some doubt and concern, but I am happy and joyful that it has happened. I can tell you, without a doubt, that a couple of years ago …

“The Icing on the Shit Cake of My Life…”

The second I said those words (the title of this post), I knew I regretted it. The full sentence I said was, "Our marriage is the icing on the shit cake of my life." It was mean, hateful, cruel and not the truth. The reality is that I was hurting from so much at the …

Fluctuations…

Sometimes, I simply do not feel sexual. Sometimes, I do not feel bisexual. Sometimes I do not feel homosexual. Sometimes I do not feel heterosexual. Sometimes I just don't know what I'm feeling. I have these times during life when I find myself thinking that I have focused so much on how I feel sexually, …

Mountainous Challenges as I Get Into Sobriety

I've always kind have been a a go home or go big kind of person. I don't enjoy the mundane and I prefer to take on tasks or goals that challenge me. I've never been afraid to push myself to my limits for the purpose of pushing the boundaries of those limits for the purpose …

I’m Done Allowing Shame to F&^K Me!

I've attached shame to so many things, but if I were to put together a list, it would look like this: My relationships Being bisexual My faith My alcoholism My role as a parent My role as a partner My job situation My financial situation My health My weight And many others. I began blogging …