The past week has been somewhat stressful, based upon the events of last week. I have stayed in touch with my sponsor, however, since I am technically new in sobriety. Of course, my sponsor is concerned about my sobriety, right now, and it makes perfect sense - so am I! I guess, in some small … Continue reading Spiritual Fitness
Consumed in self-grief Foreboding, dark, amplified! Trapped trepidation.
I'm now at 30 days of sobriety. I wish I can say, somehow, that this time is different than the previous times I've hit the 30 day mark. It's not. Same unresolved resentments. Same emotional extremes. Same temptations. Same thoughts. Same financial problems (though, I do have a better job then previous times). Same inability … Continue reading What’s different this time?
I am self-destructive when frustrated. I get frustrated when I am trying for an outcome that doesn't occur. The outcome doesn't occur, although, I'm trying to effect that outcome through control. I want to control what I can't seem to accept. I can't accept what I don't want as my reality. When my reality is … Continue reading Self-Destructive Frustration
Losing, spiraling Out of control, without hope Where is my footing?