I've attached shame to so many things, but if I were to put together a list, it would look like this: My relationships Being bisexual My faith My alcoholism My role as a parent My role as a partner My job situation My financial situation My health My weight And many others. I began blogging … Continue reading I’m Done Allowing Shame to F&^K Me!
Last night, Hilda came in like a storm and was on full scale attack. She was seeking, retribution, I'm sure for the effort I put in over the past few months to change myself for the better. Last night, she was seeking out a strong stand to take over my mind and being fully. Ultimately, … Continue reading Hilda’s Full Scale Attack.
I had a surprise attack from Hilda this morning and it took me by surprise. It was ugly and horrible and really severe and yet it seemed to have dissipated as I began getting involved in something. And, I'm chalking this up to a slight won today, because I'm choosing to have Hilda walk on … Continue reading Quick & Fierce
I woke up this morning, feeling a little defeated. I woke up this morning not wanting my life. I woke up this morning feeling sick and tired of being sick and tired. I woke up this morning feeling like sobriety didn't matter. And then, I rolled out of bed and prayed The Serenity Prayer, asked … Continue reading I Don’t Want to Struggle.
Anyone that has attended Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) meetings are going to become aware of the phrase "...restless, irritable, and discontented...". It is the warning to alcoholics that these feelings are the predecessor to the phenomena of craving. Often times, these feelings are tied into the concept of resentments and alcoholics deal with resentments by making … Continue reading Regrets