Yeah, I think I do. I think I lie to myself. I think I tell myself things and have no idea if I am building myself up with truths or lies and I have no idea if I am tearing myself down with truths or lies. I've got a few beers in me right now … Continue reading I’m pretty sure I lie to myself
I’d probs lay go to rehab, but I have no insurance and no money. I can’t stay sober. I keep going to meetings, but I can’t seem to make any of it work. my life completely sucks a big cock and unfortunately, it’s not me doing the sucking... TMI? Yeah, probably is... I have no … Continue reading I feel like nothing works.
I am really struggling today. Hilda is here. She is running amok. I can't seem to settle the negative energy in my mind, but I'm sick of all of this. I feel chained to everything and nothing seems to work in trying to break out of the situation I'm in. I have no desire to … Continue reading Hilda is on Overdrive Today.
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I’ve decided I don’t really want to change, but I don’t know how to break the cycle.