It’s been a while…

I haven't written in a while. I've been busy, pre-occupied, stressed, optimistic, fearful, tired, hopeful, etc. I'm a mixed bag of emotions, honestly. But I felt the need to give an update to how my life is going. I won't lie, I am in the midst of the most difficult struggle of my life. It …

A familiar precipice…

I've been here before. Around 2 months sober. 59 days, to be exact. And it's a dangerous place for me. A precipice, if you will. I've walked along this hazardous cliff before. It's unsure footing, inundated with emotions and sensory overload because the fogginess of my alcoholic mind is no longer feeling the physical effects …

I’ve been contemplating God again…

To say I have a complex relationship with God is a bit of a misnomer. I think the reason why it's a misnomer is because I tend to avoid God...it's hard to be complex when I'm avoiding that which is the complexity, don't you think? Occasionally, however, I decide to pray and when I do …

Some basic self-truths.

I'm not sure where it came from. I'm not sure what inspired it. I'm not even sure they are my thoughts. But I had some revelations - and probably some that have been obvious to others for quite some time. But I woke up this morning thinking these things to myself (I'm pretty sure it's …

I tried to pray today…

Yesterday's post about me feeling desperate might have come across differently than I intended it. I really meant it to designate me marking a turning point, but I noticed from some of the people who messaged me privately, that it might have come across as me giving up. And, I suppose on some level, I …