What is right – God or not?

To say I have a conflict with God is an understatement. I truly have a love-hate relationship with Him. I often mention that I was raised Catholic and currently reject it based upon my sexuality, but I know I really can't ignore my love and need for God either. Currently, I feel like an internal …

S.A.R.D. #31-1/2: Spiritual Fitness

The past week has been somewhat stressful, based upon the events of last week. I have stayed in touch with my sponsor, however, since I am technically new in sobriety. Of course, my sponsor is concerned about my sobriety, right now, and it makes perfect sense - so am I! I guess, in some small …

Providing updates…

Honestly, I hate providing updates, but it feels like that's the only way I have any interaction on my blog anymore. I remember about 9 years ago, when I first began blogging about myself, I was on almost daily - sometimes three or four posts per day. Obviously, I squashed a couple of blogs before …

It’s been a while…

I haven't written in a while. I've been busy, pre-occupied, stressed, optimistic, fearful, tired, hopeful, etc. I'm a mixed bag of emotions, honestly. But I felt the need to give an update to how my life is going. I won't lie, I am in the midst of the most difficult struggle of my life. It …

A familiar precipice…

I've been here before. Around 2 months sober. 59 days, to be exact. And it's a dangerous place for me. A precipice, if you will. I've walked along this hazardous cliff before. It's unsure footing, inundated with emotions and sensory overload because the fogginess of my alcoholic mind is no longer feeling the physical effects …