BMJ: Day 155 – Let Go of That Girl

Disclaimer: I don’t maintain this series in my blog in order or on time, but as I read through this book, I add to my Beautiful Me Journal. I consider it a work in progress, because I consider myself a work in progress. *********************************************************************************************** Today's entry into my Beautiful Me Journal (BMJ) is somewhat of a conflict …

Cynical

Feeling sorry for myself? That's the absolute worst thing I think Hilda has me feeling. I hate that I have succumbed to that crap. And it's a criticism I heard about myself this morning. The criticism was intended to be constructive and it was. Of course, I didn't want to accept it...not really. Rather, I …

I’m hot and I’m cold…

I'm not sure why my mood changes so often, but it does. It's kind of tedious, honestly, but I can wake up in the best of moods and then have it change to complete fear based negativity in a heartbeat. Take for example, this morning. I was full of optimism this morning. I was full …

Self-Doubt – a.k.a. Hilda

This morning, I woke up not feeling like being sober. It's not like I had the sudden urge to go drink, but I had these detrimental thoughts that went something along the lines of "Eh..what's the point?", "All of these seems like tedious and boring work" and even "Why do I want to share anything …

I’m off today.

I don't know what it is about my emotions that cause me to swing back and forth from positive (Stephanie) to negative (Hilda) in a matter of a few days, hours, minutes or seconds. But, since yesterday, I've just been on this blah trek in my psyche. I'm not really sure what it is that's …