Once, when I was working with a sponsor in AA (Alcoholics Anonymous), we were discussing the concept of the allergy to alcohol. It's the idea that alcoholics develop an allergy to alcohol, brought on by the feared first drink. I could never grasp it back then. I could not bring myself to conceptualize what it … Continue reading It Hurts
Day 3 Sober.
Today, I'm waking up with the realization that I hate my job, question my sexuality, wonder why I'm married, think my kids deserve better, cranky from being tired, financially strapped, bored with no hobbies to look forward to, feel old, and yet I am laughing and giggling this morning for no other reason than I … Continue reading I WANT to be sober.
Today I'm feeling irritable. I'm not sure where it's coming from but it's really bothering me today how angry and irritable I'm feeling. I can feel something pulling me, pulling my thoughts with an inception of negative animosity towards a lot of different things. I'm not sure if it's the small disagreement I had with … Continue reading Irritability
I'm having a hard time sorting through my feelings at the moment...I have some anger inside that is screaming to get out and it all stems from an interaction I had with my wife just a few moments ago. Truly, I do not do emotions very well at all...I'm utterly inept. Originally, I had intended … Continue reading Everything Inside is Screaming…