S.A.R.D. #32: Defining Toxicity – I’m No Knight in Shining Armor

Yesterday's post had me feeling positive about my life, but today, I'm not feeling so positive. It's probably similar for a lot of people, but I directly link my level of happiness and joy to my relationship with my wife. Today, is full of anxiety, because I somehow pissed Michelle off. I can tell, because …

What is right – God or not?

To say I have a conflict with God is an understatement. I truly have a love-hate relationship with Him. I often mention that I was raised Catholic and currently reject it based upon my sexuality, but I know I really can't ignore my love and need for God either. Currently, I feel like an internal …

What’s different this time?

I'm now at 30 days of sobriety. I wish I can say, somehow, that this time is different than the previous times I've hit the 30 day mark. It's not. Same unresolved resentments. Same emotional extremes. Same temptations. Same thoughts. Same financial problems (though, I do have a better job then previous times). Same inability …

S.A.R.D. #30 – I was pissed this morning…

WARNING/Disclaimer: I’m going to be discussing something of an adult nature. I am whipping this out as it comes to mind and I have thoughts that are raw and uncensored – I may or may not use vulgarity. Oh, and it may have tons of grammatical and spelling errors too (Oh, the horror!?!?!). This post is …

It’s been a while…

I haven't written in a while. I've been busy, pre-occupied, stressed, optimistic, fearful, tired, hopeful, etc. I'm a mixed bag of emotions, honestly. But I felt the need to give an update to how my life is going. I won't lie, I am in the midst of the most difficult struggle of my life. It …