One would think after 30 days of sobriety, that my spirit would be lifted and I would be utterly energized to continue down the path of sobriety. But today - really, the past few days - I feel a little meh... Un-enthusiastic. I realize this is part of my alcoholic mind. I realize it is … Continue reading Not feeling it today…
Before I really talk about this, I'm going to qualify this by saying I am in early sobriety, so there have not been "real" tests on my sobriety - especially since I chronically relapse on a mere whim - like being in desperate need of a pedicure. I'm only partially joking...you outta see the claws … Continue reading Strains on Sobriety
I won't lie. I've been drifting away from recovery over the past few days. In fact, I received a phone call from my sponsor on Saturday asking me if everything was okay (Remind me sometime to divulge my thoughts on the concept of "I'm okay"). I'm still sober, but okay? I expressed to him that … Continue reading What Areas of My Life Am I Powerless?
The other evening, I was speaking with my sponsor from Alcoholics Anonymous (AA). I had called him to discuss my last relapse and see what I needed to do to get back on track and tackle this issue of recovery head on. He asked me something that I am still working on wrapping my mind … Continue reading Powerless: A scrappy little bitch
Since, I had a relapse, my sponsor wanted me to sit down and write about Powerlessness and Unmanageability. It's not the first time I've discussed this topic, but it is certainly something I need to focus on. The recognition of being powerless and living life in an unmanageable way is the primary step to dealing with … Continue reading Revisiting Powerlessness & Unmanageability.