Cynical

Feeling sorry for myself? That's the absolute worst thing I think Hilda has me feeling. I hate that I have succumbed to that crap. And it's a criticism I heard about myself this morning. The criticism was intended to be constructive and it was. Of course, I didn't want to accept it...not really. Rather, I …

Purpose

Loving fulfillment! A life's passionate embrace Yet, so elusive.

Questioning Values

Lately, I'm spending a lot of time questioning my values.  I discussed, in a previous post, that I felt like I was experiencing a bit of an existential crisis. The unfortunate thing about that post, is that my mind was so riddled with frustration, I felt it lacked any semblance of articulation in trying to approach …

My Existential Crisis – Years In The Making

Today, I awaken with a sense of foreboding and dread. I'm in the throes of questioning everything, again.  And I am questioning my own belief system, from the standpoint of not really understanding the world around me.  I find myself in constant turmoil about so many things.  My mood is sour, grim, and negative.  On …

Purpose

I have days, like today, where I think my largest problem is that I lost a sense of purpose in my life. I don't have a cause. I question my entire belief system. I question the existence of a God. I ponder if I push for the almighty dollar too hard. I have no idea …