Honestly, it's been quite some time since I've written anything. I suppose, my lack of creativity is coming from the fact that I am doing so much better than I was even a few months ago. There is the adage that artists draw on their own pain and maybe there is some element of that … Continue reading Writing this…because…
Although, I haven’t written much since, I wanted to share this post again.
As I work through my 4th step in the Alcoholics Anonymous 12-step program, there are two resentments I have left to put down in writing. I’m finding both very difficult to do. They are my marriage and myself. Today, I’m getting ready to talk about my marriage and my role in it. When I first began blogging, my entire intention was to use the slight anonymity I could feel on the web to divulge things. Although I am literally scared and will have to admit to my own horrible actions, it is time to face those. This is easily 25 years in the making…
Day 78 sober.
WARNING/Disclaimer:I’m going to be discussing something of an adult nature. I am whipping this out as it comes to mind and I have thoughts that are raw and uncensored – I may or may not use vulgarity. Oh, and it may have tons of grammatical and spelling errors too (Oh, the horror!?!?!). This post is intended for mature audiences (i.e. ages 21+). Also, names have been changed to protect the not-so-innocent.
I am finally ready to begin opening up about my marriage. In fact, when I first began blogging several years ago, it was never intended to be anything but we whining and crying about my marriage. Of course, I didn’t want to sound like a big crybaby so I never began actually talking about my marriage. But, as long as I’ve been blogging, some of this has crept in and it is obvious I have been…
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I'm not sure where it came from. I'm not sure what inspired it. I'm not even sure they are my thoughts. But I had some revelations - and probably some that have been obvious to others for quite some time. But I woke up this morning thinking these things to myself (I'm pretty sure it's … Continue reading Some basic self-truths.
Today, I have a few things that make me smile, but a couple really stand out in my mind: Today is day 30, since my last drink and I have received so many compliments and congratulatory comments on Twitter. A friend here on WP referred to me as "steph" - a reference to my positive … Continue reading Smile List 05-12-2020
For the past several days, I've had some thoughts obsessing my mind when it's not focused. Honestly, it's something that I go through on a regular basis when I make attempts at sobriety. And I used to handle and accept my actions in the past as blips on my historical timeline. But, as I have … Continue reading Obsessive Thoughts Running in the Background