Honestly, it's been quite some time since I've written anything. I suppose, my lack of creativity is coming from the fact that I am doing so much better than I was even a few months ago. There is the adage that artists draw on their own pain and maybe there is some element of that … Continue reading Writing this…because…
The one thing that sucks about early recovery is the lack of stability in your emotions. For example, I have drifted through and cycled back through a variety of emotions this morning before it even reached 10:00 a.m. I woke up irritable, then drifted into some hope, then I engaged in a Twitter conversation that … Continue reading I HATE early recovery.
Today, I hit 90 days of continued sobriety. It literally marks the longest I have gone without having a beer for the past 10 years. Granted, I haven't been drunk in a long time, but I was rather attached to my daily beer (or 6) for a long time. It had become a crutch in … Continue reading 90 Days
The last few days have been filled with wild thoughts. I've discussed this before on a few different posts and have collectively tagged them with "circle" - feel free to look. I'm not really sure why this happens to me, but it is a vicious circle of complete insanity that I go through, where I … Continue reading Insanity: Repetition without an iota of change.
The other evening, I was speaking with my sponsor from Alcoholics Anonymous (AA). I had called him to discuss my last relapse and see what I needed to do to get back on track and tackle this issue of recovery head on. He asked me something that I am still working on wrapping my mind … Continue reading Powerless: A scrappy little bitch