A couple of weeks ago, I made the decision that I wasn't an alcoholic. So, I began drinking beer again. I just wanted to be "normal" on some level. I felt like I wasn't really getting the Alcoholics Anonymous' (AA) 12-Step Program, because everything I was being told I needed top address about myself - … Continue reading I don’t really want to drink anymore.
My morning began a little rough. I'm not sure what it is about stumbling that makes me feel like an idiot, but this morning I was feeling rather negative and doubting in any kind of hope. But I tend to be the kind of person that accepts empirical evidence as proof for something - maybe … Continue reading Pray: Surrender as the Means to Recover.
I'm not sure why it happens, but I relapsed again. I'm truly disappointed in myself. But, I failed to do one of the things that The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) recommends - "pause when agitated". I felt a complete breakdown this past Saturday night. I'd like to blame my wife, but my actions … Continue reading Agitated and failed to pause
This past Sunday I relapsed and I drank. I had an argument with my wife, but I can’t hold her or the argument responsible for wanting to drink. In fact, the craving began sitting in a few days earlier and I failed to do anything to stop it. I didn’t go to a meeting, I … Continue reading “Do you believe in God?”
I relapsed yesterday. But I’m not going to give up. I’ll keep getting up as many times as I have to. This will not beat me. Day 1