“The Icing on the Shit Cake of My Life…”

The second I said those words (the title of this post), I knew I regretted it. The full sentence I said was, "Our marriage is the icing on the shit cake of my life." It was mean, hateful, cruel and not the truth. The reality is that I was hurting from so much at the …

A new industry, imperfection, fear…

Friday afternoon, I had a job interview. It was for a chemical engineering position with a very small pharmaceutical company. Yes, I live in Colorado, but it's not a cannabis based pharmaceutical company. The company is relatively new - since 2005, but it focused on producing over the counter anti-viral medication. I applied for the …

Recent thoughts on my sexuality and stuff.

To say I have self-esteem issues, is an understatement. If you've read any of the things I've written about Hilda, it becomes quickly obvious how self-deprecating I am. I struggle, I think, for a couple of reasons - I think I suck at inter-personal relationships and I suck at my sexuality. Truthfully, I'm not even …

An Update…

Hi ya'll! I know it's been a while since I've posted - and my posts have been very sporadic over the past few months - but I wanted to post an update what I've been up to lately. Truthfully, I'm not even sure if anyone is still actively following/reading my blog, but I'm going to …

I’ve been contemplating God again…

To say I have a complex relationship with God is a bit of a misnomer. I think the reason why it's a misnomer is because I tend to avoid God...it's hard to be complex when I'm avoiding that which is the complexity, don't you think? Occasionally, however, I decide to pray and when I do …