There are Things I Cannot Control…

This past week was difficult, to say the least. Lately, I have been struggling more and more with my sexuality and identity, but I'll get to that in a moment - especially, because those seem to be aspects of who I am that I can't really ever change, but I need to learn to accept …

Not-So-Random Thoughts On My Sobriety & Life: God, Relationship, Career, Health, Sexuality , Etc.

So, as of Halloween - roughly a week ago, I crossed a full year of continuous sobriety. And I am thrilled by that, especially because I had expressed some doubt and concern, but I am happy and joyful that it has happened. I can tell you, without a doubt, that a couple of years ago …

The Missing Link

There is always some link that is missing in a story of evolution, isn't there? Except, I'm not really speaking about Darwin's Theory of Evolution. No, I'm referring to my own personal evolution and I feel like something is missing. I can't even answer the question about what I think it might be. In fact, …

What is right – God or not?

To say I have a conflict with God is an understatement. I truly have a love-hate relationship with Him. I often mention that I was raised Catholic and currently reject it based upon my sexuality, but I know I really can't ignore my love and need for God either. Currently, I feel like an internal …

“The Icing on the Shit Cake of My Life…”

The second I said those words (the title of this post), I knew I regretted it. The full sentence I said was, "Our marriage is the icing on the shit cake of my life." It was mean, hateful, cruel and not the truth. The reality is that I was hurting from so much at the …