Not-So-Random Thoughts On My Sobriety & Life: God, Relationship, Career, Health, Sexuality , Etc.

So, as of Halloween - roughly a week ago, I crossed a full year of continuous sobriety. And I am thrilled by that, especially because I had expressed some doubt and concern, but I am happy and joyful that it has happened. I can tell you, without a doubt, that a couple of years ago …

Approaching a Year of Sobriety.

359 Days. At approximately 9:00 p.m. on October 30th, 2021, I had my last drink. In fact, it was the 2nd of two beers that particular night. I went to a dinner playhouse and had two Sam Adams Boston Lager's that night. I remember thinking, as I finished that last beer, "Why the fuck am …

Writing this…because…

Honestly, it's been quite some time since I've written anything. I suppose, my lack of creativity is coming from the fact that I am doing so much better than I was even a few months ago. There is the adage that artists draw on their own pain and maybe there is some element of that …

What is right – God or not?

To say I have a conflict with God is an understatement. I truly have a love-hate relationship with Him. I often mention that I was raised Catholic and currently reject it based upon my sexuality, but I know I really can't ignore my love and need for God either. Currently, I feel like an internal …

S.A.R.D. #31-1/2: Spiritual Fitness

The past week has been somewhat stressful, based upon the events of last week. I have stayed in touch with my sponsor, however, since I am technically new in sobriety. Of course, my sponsor is concerned about my sobriety, right now, and it makes perfect sense - so am I! I guess, in some small …