BMJ: Day 138 – Consider the unresolved issue in your life.

Honestly, I am having a bit of rough day today, so this particular entry into my Beautiful Me Journal is laced with a little bitter realization, but I have decided to write about it anyways. In this entry the author of the book I've been following suggests considering THE unresolved issue in my life and …

Fear: A Character Defect

Having struggled with alcoholism over the past five years (Okay, it's probably more like 15, but I began attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings five years ago), I have had chances to see various stages of the 12-step program. Although I have not gotten past the 4th step, I have had and listened to discussions about character …

Get it together…

I'm not even sure where to begin this post, but I feel the need to get it out there and post something that forces me to take a hard stand against myself - rather, against Hilda. But I went off the rails again in a major way. In the past few weeks, I began drinking …

I’ll try…

again, and again, and again, if I have to. Day 1 Sober

Not feeling it today…

One would think after 30 days of sobriety, that my spirit would be lifted and I would be utterly energized to continue down the path of sobriety. But today - really, the past few days - I feel a little meh...  Un-enthusiastic. I realize this is part of my alcoholic mind. I realize it is …