I had a surprise attack from Hilda this morning and it took me by surprise. It was ugly and horrible and really severe and yet it seemed to have dissipated as I began getting involved in something. And, I'm chalking this up to a slight won today, because I'm choosing to have Hilda walk on … Continue reading Quick & Fierce
Right now I'm going through a bit of a dry spell in my recovery from alcohol. I don't believe I'm in danger of drinking, but I also don't want to sit on my laurels and have it sneak up on me. I am working the 12 step program of Alcoholics Anonymous and have taken the … Continue reading Right now
I can't get my car registered with the state. A month ago, I started a new job without having transportation. Well, I borrowed a couple thousand bucks from a family member to buy a used car. Well, I found one a week ago, bought it and got the title this past Wednesday. It's not extravagant, … Continue reading Anxiety running high today.
I'm not sure why it happens, but I relapsed again. I'm truly disappointed in myself. But, I failed to do one of the things that The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) recommends - "pause when agitated". I felt a complete breakdown this past Saturday night. I'd like to blame my wife, but my actions … Continue reading Agitated and failed to pause
I hate the fact that I question this about myself. I despise that, once again, I'm sitting here contemplating if I am actually an alcoholic. Honestly, I don't know if I am or if I simply enjoy the taste of beer. I'm sitting her this morning, starting another attempt at being sober. It feels weird … Continue reading Alcoholic much?