Today’s alcoholic thoughts.

Sometimes there are days when I have so much to say, and then there are days like today when I don't really have anything to say - especially about being an alcoholic. What I know today is that I woke up, got on my knees and prayed. Then I began my morning duties for work. …

Panic from low blood sugar…

So, I'm fighting an urge at this moment. My blood glucose level is exactly 63 mg/dL as I write this.  I'm trying not to have a knee-jerk reaction right now. I just took 4 glucose tabs (4g carbohydrate each, for a total of 16 g) to treat the low, as well as a small peanut …

A Small Dip…

I haven't thought about depression in a while...maybe over two weeks now.  I'm not really sure.  I have been trying to focus on things to keep my mind busy, but last night I had a little dip in the mood.  It's one of those things that I notice, because it's usually a strong indicator that …

Choosing how to die versus eating a bowl of ice cream with peanut butter?

***Trigger Warning: Discussing thought of suicide and eating disorders.*** ===================================================================== As I sit here, spoon in hand and pushing a fattening scoop of ice cream smothered with peanut butter into my mouth, a depressing thought came to my mind: "I could pull my infusion set out and no one would know it was intentional..."  You see, …