Not feeling it today…

One would think after 30 days of sobriety, that my spirit would be lifted and I would be utterly energized to continue down the path of sobriety. But today - really, the past few days - I feel a little meh...  Un-enthusiastic. I realize this is part of my alcoholic mind. I realize it is …

Strains on Sobriety

Before I really talk about this, I'm going to qualify this by saying I am in early sobriety, so there have not been "real" tests on my sobriety - especially since I chronically relapse on a mere whim - like being in desperate need of a pedicure.  I'm only partially joking...you outta see the claws …

Revisiting Powerlessness & Unmanageability.

Since, I had a relapse, my sponsor wanted me to sit down and write about Powerlessness and Unmanageability. It's not the first time I've discussed this topic, but it is certainly something I need to focus on.  The recognition  of being powerless and living life in an unmanageable way is the primary step to dealing with …

Powerlessness & Unmanageability

In AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) you often here the expression, “the gift of desperation” as a means for an alcoholic to accept the 1st Step of the AA program. I’m not sure I feel desperate, but I do feel hopeless as I have found myself using beer again to hide my emotional state and twelve days …