I don't know what causes me the most frustration - relationships, work, having no ability to plan how I want to live my life, money issues, lack of sex, the damned medical bill I'm being sued over...or whatever other fucking thing happens to be on my nerves or what?!?! Okay, I'm sorry I cussed...my parents taught … Continue reading Day 21: The Struggle is Real
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Alcoholic Thinking…
It's commonly accepted in Alcoholics Anonymous that the feelings alcoholics have before they pick up their first drink are "restlessness, irritability and discontent". For an alcoholic, this sets up the phenomenon of craving. A normal person can have a drink to relax, escape and return to a normal state of mind just fine, but an … Continue reading Alcoholic Thinking…
Irritability
Today I'm feeling irritable. I'm not sure where it's coming from but it's really bothering me today how angry and irritable I'm feeling. I can feel something pulling me, pulling my thoughts with an inception of negative animosity towards a lot of different things. I'm not sure if it's the small disagreement I had with … Continue reading Irritability